me again!!!

So new news coming up. I scheduled my surgery and got all of my paperwork in to my current job so that i don't lose my full time. I am excited that it will finally get fixed but am scared about the surgery and the pain and recovery. I have a friend that said she would take the day off to be able to take me to the hospital. That is a load off of my mind as it is. She keeps flaking on lunches so i hope that she can pull through for me because i could really use the extra help.
I don't know what else to say really. The boys have really stepped up to help around the house. C is helping with the laundry. In helping i mean that he puts it away for me. Which is totally ok because i really hate that part. We did get a nice long conversation in the other day about how i can't wait for things to be back the way that they were as far as me actually being excited about intimate stuff. I have been much happier lately about just curling up with a movie. I know that is really bad and doesn't help in our relationship but he now knows that it takes more than coming to bed to get any.
I think that this surgery will really put things into perspective for both of us and i am really hoping that he will step up to the plate with the important stuff. I know that maybe i am REALLY picky about how the house needs to look and it being spotless 24/7 is a little much to expect when i won't be able to do anything for myself. But maybe this will be a good time for C to have to worry about someone other than himself. This is going to be a long haul and i hope that it will go well. I am really looking forward to the break though. I have been working non stop for the last several years because every hour helps, so it will be nice to have a break.
I have a small test coming up at work. It is just a formality really but it seems to mean a lot to my manager that i take it. I am nervous but don't know that i could be any more prepared. I am still really enjoying my job and may be having dinner with a lady from work. This means i gained another friend. Yea me.
Well had better be done for the night. Will try to write more tomorrow.